Angel >:(
All the shit.
Im STILL emo,
for god's sake.
I'm just lying to myself.
Wheet, i love having a sucker's life




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Sad, when are you ever coming back..?
I'm having weird dreams, and im unable to differentiate whats true and whats not.
Don't leave me alone.. I can’t stand up again.. Just let me see you for a second..

Saturday.
Woke up late, because i dreamt of him. Thought it was real. Nevertheless, i didnt want to end the dream, hence waking up late. Woke up in disappointment. Only had 15 minutes to prepare (says mother) Went for breakfast near cousins' house. (why do i ever have to do this..?) Cousins' house (why, why, why..??) Made felt cards. (memories of the past... Once again flooding back.. Ever since i told myself not to involve myself in crafts again)


Made of scrap felt my cousin had..

The one on the left is given to my cousin.









One more i made after i took that picture.
p.s. The background is a paper with a map.








After that, went to Pasir Ris Park. My cousins' house was at jurong west, so had to travel to the other end of singapore. It was my brother and my first time there. There were my mother's colleagues, so we were strangers..





I dont like this angle, it feels rather uncomfortable.









I like that tree right there. But im a really lousy photographer.









BBQed throughout the night.. Left at 10.25pm. Went to the MRT station. (mother's colleague sent us there) Boarded the train at 10.30. Sad enough, my phone had no more battery. I could've sent him a few messages or so about my day... Saw many couples.. But the feeling is dead.. I dont wanna feel it.. Dont want to be envious anymore. I take charge of my own feelings, my emotions. A weird and sleepless night followed...


Sunday
Went to takashimaya...
Bought so much to eat... I stuffed myself.. Sticked to being positive. But my back really hurt.. Usually occurs in old people.. Rather weird... We were just walking, and i was trying really hard to randomise my thoughts... Then i saw this piglet. Its the size of.... Well, it can sit on my chair. Just nice. So its rather huge.. I dont even know why i asked my mother to buy it for me.. I was in a rather good mood then. So, she said if there were anymore extra stock, then i could. But there wasnt. Pretty sad huh, but she said if she sees one, she would buy it. (why is she really being so nice these days..? **rhetorical question**)



There it is.. I like the fact that her eyes are brown.
His eyes are brown too. Sigh....









Went home.. Around six.. This time things got really sad.. (Whats happening...? We were so good, once.. As a threesome. I guess, this is what happens when i dont cherish things. Did i not..? Or was it really not enough..? Even what once seemed to be so perfect is falling apart) Looked for the seashells i found the day before.. Picked out what i wanted or what i do not want.








These are the ones i picked. The small ones are really pretty..







And then, these are the remaining. With soggy tissue paper because i put the washed shells on the tissue paper straight away.














Finally, i decided to add in some more. Besides, i did filter them out from those at the beach.








So, sometimes it really seems that it depends how you look at things.. If you change your thinking, what you feel are flaws might turn out to be what makes them unique.






Today
Nothing much today. Just the computer and i. Literally. Im not talking to anyone. Its not that im trying to be antisocial. I just dont feel like it. Maybe i trip to the bookstore later..? Perhaps.

LOVE&JOY
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