Saturday, May 30, 2009
Achievers' day yesterday was great, we performed well, at 75-80% i think..? But i put in my best of effort. Especially at the last (second) song =) Though i still think theres room for improvement and i believe the ensemble as the potential to do better..! But all in all, the atmosphere was still there. Was dismissed around late 10 i guess. I had to go home alone. Pity no one came to send me home. I was TOTALLY alone by the way. But then i picked up a phone call from my mother. She was going to malaysia. With my brother. And i wasnt going, so i had to go to cousin's house. It was late at night. And i had to wait for her. She kept going to the wrong direction (it was dark at night) Well, i waited.. And she came. So i went to my cousin's house. Watched some television, went to bed. =) Now using my laptop. Had to make another trip home as my maid didnt pack the power cord together with my stuff (she went to malaysia too). Well, tiring day, yet with a sense of achievement. :DDD
LOVE&JOY
«6:35 PM»
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Wednesday, May 27, 2009
**Dizzy spells**
**Continuous reminder** I'm stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid...
**Fades to silence**
On second thought, maybe I'm not so as i think. I could be just pessimistic, you know... I'm going to work hard this time. I'm going to make it. I'm going to make it. I'll prove to those that compare. Don't compare me with them. If you're really good then compare yourself with some others better than you. I mean, isn't this demoralizing..? Insults are bad enough, but i really can't take it when you compare me with others. The last time you compared, i prove you wrong. Now its coming again..? Well, i know its my duty to do well.. But don't tell me about someone that is better than me in areas which i am at weak in. You can tell me where i went wrong, tell me what my problem is. But don't compare. Yet again, you gave me the strength and motivation to stand up again. I will make it. Won't i..? Given that i pay attention. I'll make that effort to improve my chinese. No matter how much i dont want to do it. I'll do it till i break down into tears. Until then i wont allow myself to break a single tear until i improve on my chinese. I'll do it. I'll do everything within my means. I wont be complacent. I'm not stupid, its just that i don't find my own ways to make things happen.
Miracles happen because you started it.
LOVE&JOY
«6:21 PM»
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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Hmmm, i read my own blog.. And i read my tags (which is really rare). My previous post sounds really really rude DD; But i was wondering, if i dont keep sadness to myself, am i even allowed to complain..? I understand that there are people much worst off than me.. Hence, i hardly let my feelings out.
Oh well. And i wanna thank people who read my blog :DDDDDD Such a wonder =] Teehee. =X
Nothing much to post, other than. I pity that girl in the show "Uninvited". She imagined her whole story up. And i was seriously thinking, at those parts where they shock you, if it were a normal person, will you be curious to look in the bag, or would you just run away. Especially if its so creepy. Normal person's instinct would tell you to run away. ._.
Thats all, i guess..? ><>< Byee :DD
LOVE&JOY
«7:42 PM»
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Saturday, May 16, 2009
the cause of my absence is because i dont want anybody to pity me.
im not that kind of person.
so, i would be mia for a period of time.
due to some reason.
and i doubt anyone would read my blog anyway.
so there. fairwell my precious online diary.
it hurts too much..
LOVE&JOY
«1:43 PM»
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Saturday, May 9, 2009
Didnt post for a long time, right..? I guess i was busy..? Like everyone is. With the exam preparations and so.. Most. Im one of those not included in the most. Am i addicted..? Tell me i'm not.. I dont wanna be.. The exams are here in front of my eyes.. Why dont i budge..? Blame me, for having an addiction of everything i come close to. Homework is not an exception. But that was something so long ago. Take it away. I dont want to be addicted to the computer.
Come back, I miss you.. <3333
LOVE&JOY
«10:58 PM»
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Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Sigh... Why do people just do things and not know why they did..? Why is it that they only regret after..? Is it that humans are create to make mistakes..? And learn..? Unfortunately, i would learn from hardly of my mistakes. Why did i say that.. Why...? Oh well, no point crying over what has been done. I shall bear the consequences. **peace**
LOVE&JOY
«4:31 PM»
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Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Happiness is just something so sweet, yet so easy to let go off.. I'm doing my best not to let it go though... I'm so happy but, darling, are you...? I'm trying, but i cant seem to let you go, dont want to leave you. You truely brighten up my day. I'm so glad, really. Promise though, you will study hard. I know you can do it ;D If not, then i'll help you up. I still remember when you told me you would work hard.. Even if we become together. That was last time. Now everything has changed, but i am happy things are this way! =D Love you..
LOVE&JOY
«3:56 PM»
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Monday, May 4, 2009
Why does it have to be,
Just every couple that reminds me of you and me...?
Why do i have to feel that sharp pain when i see them..?
Why is it that i feel im not good enough for you...?
Is it true, that im really not putting in my most effort..?
But i'm am, and its true.
Believe it anot,
Its always true.
For my love for you IS, afterall,
True.
LOVE&JOY
«8:42 PM»
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Saturday, May 2, 2009
You left so quickly.. It was just 10 minutes.. Just 10 minutes and i'd be back.. You told me you'll wait.. But i'm happy, happy that you waited. Okay, this is happened very long ago, because i just left the post there and i remembered i wanted to post. And here i am. Now im really wishing you can come online. I miss you darling. I love you too..
Come online alrights..? I'm waiting.. ='( I cant stand being without you.
LOVE&JOY
«9:03 PM»
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Sometimes People dont understand that words really dont count. Do something about it. What will be left are some, broken promises. Is it that in this world.. There is no one we can trust..? We really cant trust people that much.. Wondering.. What if.. People cant express them..? **Lets change the topic** Has anyone thought.. (maybe there is) That when feelings change, is it because the people change..? Yes i
guess know so. At this age, is very common right..? Infatuation.. Why does it have to exist..? I've made my choice, im not going to escape. Even if it ends, I will accept what has been done. I'll take it as a lesson learnt. Since i took this path, i will not run away. This will teach me what nobody can. Something that can only be learnt from experience. I dont feel like blogging much longer. Some frustration..
{Can you leave the house..? Its not like anyone wants you here. You are just ruining my future, you get it..? I dont acknowledge you, and you should know that. You yourself know what im talking about. You know where you went wrong. Its not that we dont give you a second chance. You done it twice. Greed..? I call that unfaithfulness. Why am i even in this state. You chose your path. Your way to temptation. You succumbed to it. Now it has to be our fault. Lucky i learnt that life is unfair. I'm going to bear with you for the time being. See my true colours in court.}(Hmm, why are you reading this anyway..? It would never be anything to do with you. I'm 100% sure. Oh well, I wont blame you for reading this anyway.)I love you darling.. <3
LOVE&JOY
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