Thursday, July 23, 2009
Why was i kicked out of the class..? What did i do..? I had my work, yes. I really didnt know when they said we should hand it up. But really, since they say im in the wrong, i shall say too. But honestly, i think i am being wronged. Why am i the first girl to get out of the class..? What did i do, really..? I am here to learn, not to get kicked out for no reason. For one thing, putra didnt tell me i didnt hand up. Teachers. Typical. Its my fault. I should be responsible homework. But look, we are human too. What we feel is what you feel before.. Normal teachers only like budding students, but rarely look at hardworking ones. Im not saying im hardworking. I tried. But it didnt work. So what is the point. I work hard, but the result is the SAME. I might be very worthless. But i still have a brain. I dont like it this way. Prenultimately, its either they are strict and dont joke, or are very lenient. Finally, i find this a whole ridicule. Cuz its not my fault
LOVE&JOY
«9:05 PM»
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
Its very well common that if you don't do well in a subject, obviously, you would instinctively hate it. But hey, i've learnt the way not to do that. Guess what..? I shall hate all of them. Even if i do well. That is very unreasonable of me, but who cares. You can choose not to bother. Like the teachers. Everyone choses to ignore me, and so i shall just ignore everything else as well. What matters is that i know, no matter how hard i try, i will be back to where i always was. In the past, now, and forever to come. Yay, great, everything flew like little sparks and i am to survive. Yes. But who can see a useless person....? I just feel like writing here so at least i have written evidence that i actually felt like this before. Why wont the misery just go away...? what a load of self pity.....
LOVE&JOY
«9:53 PM»
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
Long since i really went to post. But, you think that man bothers..? No. He wants me to be unhappy. Dont bring me to the counsellor. Im not gonna do it. No matter how hard you try. Im staying put. Im fine, really. Let him kill me. You there reading must be thinking i'm trying to attract some worthless attention. Nope. I'm not. I'm trying to say, when i die, at least theres written evidence okay..? that is the real purpose of my blog anyway. At least those lawyers etc would see what i feel.. They wont see... I'm really unhappy. With that man. I didnt make that mistake. Im not willing to pay for it.
(on top is crap)
Recently been doing lots of cooking and and and... Nothing much actually =( oh, felt cards. Lalalaaa.. Really, nothing much. I post for the sake of posting. Yay... =.= People are nice, but why am i like this..?? Hey, lemme ask. Is there anything positive about life..?? no.
LOVE&JOY
«10:03 PM»
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