Wednesday, May 27, 2009
**Dizzy spells**
**Continuous reminder** I'm stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid...
**Fades to silence**
On second thought, maybe I'm not so as i think. I could be just pessimistic, you know... I'm going to work hard this time. I'm going to make it. I'm going to make it. I'll prove to those that compare. Don't compare me with them. If you're really good then compare yourself with some others better than you. I mean, isn't this demoralizing..? Insults are bad enough, but i really can't take it when you compare me with others. The last time you compared, i prove you wrong. Now its coming again..? Well, i know its my duty to do well.. But don't tell me about someone that is better than me in areas which i am at weak in. You can tell me where i went wrong, tell me what my problem is. But don't compare. Yet again, you gave me the strength and motivation to stand up again. I will make it. Won't i..? Given that i pay attention. I'll make that effort to improve my chinese. No matter how much i dont want to do it. I'll do it till i break down into tears. Until then i wont allow myself to break a single tear until i improve on my chinese. I'll do it. I'll do everything within my means. I wont be complacent. I'm not stupid, its just that i don't find my own ways to make things happen.
Miracles happen because you started it.
LOVE&JOY
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