Sunday, October 4, 2009
I am lazy to do anything..
LOVE&JOY
«3:29 PM»
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Thursday, October 1, 2009
i dont wanna be hearing anymore of your bullshit.
i dont wanna be just there so you wont miss me.
i dont wanna be a punching bag.
i dont wanna be used for your whatever purpose.
i dont wanna be cheap anymore.
i dont wanna be the reason for what happens to you.
i dont wanna be afraid that what i say might hurt you.
i dont wanna be caring about someone who doesnt give a damn.
i dont wanna be lying to myself anymore.
You said you love me.
And so, why are you lying to me? Am i so darn young and naive? I believe not.......
LOVE&JOY
«7:21 PM»
Y
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Waiting for your call im sick.
call.. im angry.
call.. im desperate for your voice.
Sigh... when is this gonna end, when will my request ever come true. when will i get t live some proper life? I'm tired like everyone else is... But i hurt every second..Blah im lazy to type all th shit and crap i want t say.
LOVE&JOY
«7:28 PM»
Y
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I am not emo no more :DDDD I want to thank everyone that was there when i was feeling really low. I found out that its MY fault okayyyyy.. Whee wheeee :DD let me start thanking. Thank you dear - for making me understand, thank you josephine for keeping me alive, thank you cindy - for keeping me on, thank you sweekheng - for making lame things funny, thank you yirui - being there when i was sad, thank you eric - for explaning stuff, thank you casia - for making me laugh, thank you weiteck - for letting me poke you and making me laugh alot, thank you everyone else that i've talked t during my emo days - for talking to me; it makes me happy, you know ><
LOVE&JOY
«5:49 PM»
Y
Sunday, August 23, 2009
I was just wondering why blogger looks so weird now. I mean, when blogging. Like when im typing, now. Okay I should wonder why I even bothered to blog?? Its either im really bored or i have something to say. Its kind of like both. But i prefer not to speak so much. Many things i choose to forget. Nobody gets everything they want in every way. No one. So no one shall get to know unless they talk to me or... well, they already know.
I hate it really much when the internet suddenly goes off. Knowing that i am using it, why still do this kind of things??? I am FRUSTRATED and ANNOYED by your childish doings. By doing this will make me hate you more instead of wanting to talk to you more. You idiot. You seriously think this is going to closen our ties isnt it. WELL IM TELLING YOU, ITS NOT! I'M SO WISHING YOU'D FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE BECAUSE I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS ANGRY BEFORE!
Okay im alright now.. x.x
I dont wish to talk anymore.. I'm tired.....
LOVE&JOY
«8:11 PM»
Y
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Today, it rained. I went out running in there. i wish i could stay there longer. i mean, i never get sick so easily. Not like i wanted to, but its been veeerrrryy long since it rained. Rain is my friend. Darkness is my best friend. i havent been blogging since so long ago. thanks to the fact that i had no access to the internet! (Or i was busy?) Grr.. but recently could surf and i was "busy" facebooking. I am being more emotional these days.. Lalalaa. Literally emotional.. I could be soo high and soo low.. too bad i missed the chance when i was in the proper state to start some slashing. i felt so horrible then. And disgusted by my presence. I mean, what i only heard in my brain was all those words telling me that i was surplus and whatever. Well, they didnt. i overread betweent the lines. But wont they just LOVE IT when they see me hurt. I am sooooo not deserved to be cared about that i'd bet even if i die, they would laugh. They would joke that he's better without me. YESYES! he IS better without me. Hahahaaaah. C'mon, im destroying myself. Arent there anything you wanna say to me..? Tell me to go to hell, me attention seeker..? what i can say is. Really..? I want to too. YES i am so insignificant. But im not trying to seek attention. First, i wanna waste space that i finally own. I dont wanna continue. Cuz i needa go. Peeekers are bugggginnn meeee. Tata! :D
BTW, I LOVE JOSEPHINE YEE
LOVE&JOY
«8:09 PM»
Y
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Why was i kicked out of the class..? What did i do..? I had my work, yes. I really didnt know when they said we should hand it up. But really, since they say im in the wrong, i shall say too. But honestly, i think i am being wronged. Why am i the first girl to get out of the class..? What did i do, really..? I am here to learn, not to get kicked out for no reason. For one thing, putra didnt tell me i didnt hand up. Teachers. Typical. Its my fault. I should be responsible homework. But look, we are human too. What we feel is what you feel before.. Normal teachers only like budding students, but rarely look at hardworking ones. Im not saying im hardworking. I tried. But it didnt work. So what is the point. I work hard, but the result is the SAME. I might be very worthless. But i still have a brain. I dont like it this way. Prenultimately, its either they are strict and dont joke, or are very lenient. Finally, i find this a whole ridicule. Cuz its not my fault
LOVE&JOY
«9:05 PM»
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